I have it back!

Hey everyone!

I went and got my right hearing aid back again today. They ended up just sending me a new one which is fine I guess. We still aren't sure exactly how my hearing aid broke. She changed the battery and then the battery door was broken. I think we have decided it was faulty from the start and something she did just made it evidently faulty. It works now though!

I don't like the sound at all. I have actually sent my audiologist a few emails saying that I hate them and if I never had to use them for speech again I would be better off, and then there were a few saying I missed them and wanted them back. I mostly missed music and being able to hear it. Actually I have been listening to music all night but when I am listening to something that isn't music, IE ambient noise, I am miserable. I hate the sounds. I think it is because I can understand the music. I can't understand the noises and environmental sounds very well anymore. I think with time and practice I could but I don't really have anyone to help me with that. I need someone who can devote an hour a few times a week to helping me learn sounds. I need someone to quiz me with different sounds, and someone who can explain what all the sounds are. If I am alone in my apartment and I hear something I don't understand it can be near impossible for me to trouble shoot what the sound is on my own. I can't always tell the direction of sounds or the volume of them so I basically have no perception on where, how loud, or what the sound is. It can be very frustrating sometimes to simply not understand the auditory world at all. I can understand the visual cues, and I can understand the tactile information but sound just doesn't make sense anymore. I think that is more frustrating for me than not hearing it. I am happy in my silent world, though I miss music, and then someone comes along and tells me I need to wear these plastic things on my ears that makes everything seem loud and foreign. I slowly start to get used to the sounds and then somebody takes them away for some reason. Then when I get them back I don't understand anymore and I need to start over again.

Then there are the adjustments! Every time my audiologist adjusts my hearing aids I can't understand anything for a long time. This is especially annoying if I had already adjusted to them enough that they were helping with speech reading. Then if my audiologist changes something I can't really communicate easily for any specified period of time. It is annoying!!!

Anyway that is all I have time to write. I am hoping to have a VLOG up in the next few days!

Jenny